S.O.S.

This weekend was fucked up! So there is this guy that i have liked alot since last year and well this year i started flirting, well his roommate told me this weekend he really likes me alot and would want to date me if he wasn't scared our friendship would fall apart if we ever broke up...i wouldn't let it ....but that is beside the point!

So knowing this i had already had plans to hangout with he, and his 2 roomies on friday night. Well i have a theatre department little brother, and the guy invited mine too because he was hanging out with me and the guy all afternoon...i should figured something was up but nope not till we left to go that night when the guy forced my little to ride with them leaving him to be stranded at their house since we were all going to be drunk. So anyways by the next day i was pretty sure of the guy's motives and i was so upset but i just let it go.

So saturday night was the foam party in housing on campus, and i invited all of them (the guy and his roomies) to come which they did and my little was with them when they got there and wouldn't leave the guys side.....WTF!!!!! And he went home with him that night...I was livid!!!!

The worst part is my little knew i like the guy and it didn't seem to phase him. He also however had his eye on one of my best friends. so WTF! He also claims not to rush into things but hello....in two days that in my book is rushing things!

I have decided i hate gay guys in this city, all they do is fuck over guys who are nice and just want a nice guy. well here they are all double crossing 2 faced bastards!

Astonishing

So i don't remember if i have used my title before but the song fits what i am feeling. This week was an eye opener that i am finally really finding myself as a college student...i have grown up alot since my freshman year....i am still very intune with my inner child so don't fret!

I have just been on top of my studies and been socializing and having time for both in abundance and i am trying to find a job....i am trying very hard but it isn't working very well. Oh well.

I am back in writers meetings and i love it! I needed it in my life.

I also have my eye on a few new guys.....one is just adorable and he may be my date for a party friday! I am ildly excited about it...eventhough it isn't set in stone...but just the possibility excites me...I have never taken a date to a party.

Stay cute and i will update again soon

Good Morning Starshine

so it is round two of my Monday/Wednesday classes...yipeee and i am trying to act like i don't feel crappy...i guess i really don't but i feel physically wierd today i am light headed but not nausious.....HMMMMMMM..... oh well. I am sitting here in my Government classs...blah....and then i have econ....double blah ...then childrens theatre....yay! then home work...no work out today cause i am sick. :( oh well. Hopefully i will feel better soon.....HOPEFULLY.....:S. First info from govt today: Greed is good!

PSA sweet Guys

So i have made a new friend he is really adorable fun and cute but he is younger and idk if i should keeep going after younger guys

Adelaide's (Andrew's) Lament

Ugh so it is day two of classes...and guess what....i am sick. I have somehow managed to come down with a cold overnight...literally. Yesterday at about lunch time or somewhere there after my throat started to be sore...then by about 8 last night my nose was like Niagra Falls...still is if anyone wants to ride a barrel down nasal drippage. Well all was well...i though hmm just a sinus infection...no big...which it still could be but prolly not. So in Theatre History my head starts pounding my nose is running the professor is talking...hell is breaking loose and i can't take it. In the middle of the professor's welcome back talk i have to leave to blow my fucking nose...I SIT IN THE FONT ROW!!!!! I first of all hate haveing to leave a class while a professor is lecturing or talking at all and i am appalled when it happens when i sit in the front. That is when i started to think i was really coming down with something...well after lunch (Now) i am in my room i just took my temperature and i have a slight fever 99.7 not really enough to be overtly concerned but still i am aggravated that is week one of classes and i feel like shit over night. FML

We're Just Friends

I LOVE LOVE LOVE move in week!!!! So many new faces and friends. Reunions with old friends who you haven't seen all summer! GAH!!!!!! IT IS A PURE ADRENALINE RUSH!!!!!!! and yet draining....i am fighting sleep as i type this! My room is great! Small but cozy I love it and it is so artsy...i am going to get so much done this year i think.

I have made a list of rules to follow this year:

1) Write daily for the hell of writing
2) Exercise at least twice a week
3) Keep up with my studies
4) Make sure i don't negelect my friends
5) Make sure i maintain a job this year
6) Stay Positive
7) Smile more

Those are the basics...lots has changed for me over the summer. I am puttin a new perspective on my life. So if you are reading this please be a doll and try and hold me to it... After all we are friends!

PSA Being Nice

Why is it so hard to receive kindness from others? Please tell me why i am wasting my time caring for all you people that i show generous amounts of kindness to. Am I wasting my time on people? Do they even care that i care? I am a nice person so why is my kindness getting thrown back in my face lately? I am starting to think it isn't worth it to be nice anymore and that i should be a bitch all the time from now on and lose my sense of humor and like do a 180 on my life and what i believe in...is that what everyone wants...it has to be unanimous.

Time to Go

I love obscure titles....anyhoo....it is now 4 days and counting till i move back to where home truly is for me...columbus.

Today was my last day at the day care (knock on wood!) I am so happy and relieveed.

This summer has been a summer of new experiences and new realizations abou people and myself and i think i have grown alot as a person and into myself this summer. I am so ready for school and i miss all my friends back at CSU and am so ready to be out of the house again...sorry mom. But it has definetly been a summer to remember.

But now it is time to go.....