Waiting

So guys, waiting pays off. I have been single for five months now. Crazy right? It actually has been the most stressful five months ever, as the few posts from last semester can show you. I haven't posted in forever I am fully aware. Too busy! Sad i know. Life hasn't really calmed down much but it has gotten better.

So i have been online dating again. I know I know...not the best way to find guys. Well this is the first time a guy has ever found me instead. One of the most gorgeous guys i have "met" started talking to me this past weekend on one of the sites i was on. I guess it was my turn to stop doing the looking and someone search me out cause that is sure what happened. At first i totally was like "this guy is just looking for one thing" but how wrong was i he asked me out on a date...a legit dinner and a movie date. He is the epitome of a southern gentleman. He is sweet asking about how i feel about things not pushing me to say or do anything i don't want to. I have very good feelings about him. He seems very mature. He is a poli sci major getting his masters here and very smart too. he is so wonderful to me, and i think it is time i don't have to be the provider...i always seem to fuck that up anyways.

I get to meet him next week (he has been in Savannah all week...great aunt passed away.) Who knows he might be the one or at least a real long relationship that will be an enjoyable experience that i can look back and smile and be glad i took the leap!

Hmm other things going on in my life...I am the tour manager for our children's show in the fall...i head to england for three weeks of study abroad in May...and hopefully getting an internship at Lexington Childrens theatre.

I guess that is about it right now! Finally a really cheerful post to counter act all my depressed and bitchy ones.

Waiting

So guys, waiting pays off. I have been single for five months now. Crazy right? It actually has been the most stressful five months ever, as the few posts from last semester can show you. I haven't posted in forever I am fully aware. Too busy! Sad i know. Life hasn't really calmed down much but it has gotten better.

So i have been online dating again. I know I know...not the best way to find guys. Well this is the first time a guy has ever found me instead. One of the most gorgeous guys i have "met" started talking to me this past weekend on one of the sites i was on. I guess it was my turn to stop doing the looking and someone search me out cause that is sure what happened. At first i totally was like "this guy is just looking for one thing" but how wrong was i he asked me out on a date...a legit dinner and a movie date. He is the epitome of a southern gentleman. He is sweet asking about how i feel about things not pushing me to say or do anything i don't want to. I have very good feelings about him. He seems very mature. He is a poli sci major getting his masters here and very smart too. he is so wonderful to me, and i think it is time i don't have to be the provider...i always seem to fuck that up anyways.

I get to meet him next week (he has been in Savannah all week...great aunt passed away.) Who knows he might be the one or at least a real long relationship that will be an enjoyable experience that i can look back and smile and be glad i took the leap!

Hmm other things going on in my life...I am the tour manager for our children's show in the fall...i head to england for three weeks of study abroad in May...and hopefully getting an internship at Lexington Childrens theatre

S.O.S.

This weekend was fucked up! So there is this guy that i have liked alot since last year and well this year i started flirting, well his roommate told me this weekend he really likes me alot and would want to date me if he wasn't scared our friendship would fall apart if we ever broke up...i wouldn't let it ....but that is beside the point!

So knowing this i had already had plans to hangout with he, and his 2 roomies on friday night. Well i have a theatre department little brother, and the guy invited mine too because he was hanging out with me and the guy all afternoon...i should figured something was up but nope not till we left to go that night when the guy forced my little to ride with them leaving him to be stranded at their house since we were all going to be drunk. So anyways by the next day i was pretty sure of the guy's motives and i was so upset but i just let it go.

So saturday night was the foam party in housing on campus, and i invited all of them (the guy and his roomies) to come which they did and my little was with them when they got there and wouldn't leave the guys side.....WTF!!!!! And he went home with him that night...I was livid!!!!

The worst part is my little knew i like the guy and it didn't seem to phase him. He also however had his eye on one of my best friends. so WTF! He also claims not to rush into things but hello....in two days that in my book is rushing things!

I have decided i hate gay guys in this city, all they do is fuck over guys who are nice and just want a nice guy. well here they are all double crossing 2 faced bastards!

Astonishing

So i don't remember if i have used my title before but the song fits what i am feeling. This week was an eye opener that i am finally really finding myself as a college student...i have grown up alot since my freshman year....i am still very intune with my inner child so don't fret!

I have just been on top of my studies and been socializing and having time for both in abundance and i am trying to find a job....i am trying very hard but it isn't working very well. Oh well.

I am back in writers meetings and i love it! I needed it in my life.

I also have my eye on a few new guys.....one is just adorable and he may be my date for a party friday! I am ildly excited about it...eventhough it isn't set in stone...but just the possibility excites me...I have never taken a date to a party.

Stay cute and i will update again soon

Good Morning Starshine

so it is round two of my Monday/Wednesday classes...yipeee and i am trying to act like i don't feel crappy...i guess i really don't but i feel physically wierd today i am light headed but not nausious.....HMMMMMMM..... oh well. I am sitting here in my Government classs...blah....and then i have econ....double blah ...then childrens theatre....yay! then home work...no work out today cause i am sick. :( oh well. Hopefully i will feel better soon.....HOPEFULLY.....:S. First info from govt today: Greed is good!

PSA sweet Guys

So i have made a new friend he is really adorable fun and cute but he is younger and idk if i should keeep going after younger guys

Adelaide's (Andrew's) Lament

Ugh so it is day two of classes...and guess what....i am sick. I have somehow managed to come down with a cold overnight...literally. Yesterday at about lunch time or somewhere there after my throat started to be sore...then by about 8 last night my nose was like Niagra Falls...still is if anyone wants to ride a barrel down nasal drippage. Well all was well...i though hmm just a sinus infection...no big...which it still could be but prolly not. So in Theatre History my head starts pounding my nose is running the professor is talking...hell is breaking loose and i can't take it. In the middle of the professor's welcome back talk i have to leave to blow my fucking nose...I SIT IN THE FONT ROW!!!!! I first of all hate haveing to leave a class while a professor is lecturing or talking at all and i am appalled when it happens when i sit in the front. That is when i started to think i was really coming down with something...well after lunch (Now) i am in my room i just took my temperature and i have a slight fever 99.7 not really enough to be overtly concerned but still i am aggravated that is week one of classes and i feel like shit over night. FML

We're Just Friends

I LOVE LOVE LOVE move in week!!!! So many new faces and friends. Reunions with old friends who you haven't seen all summer! GAH!!!!!! IT IS A PURE ADRENALINE RUSH!!!!!!! and yet draining....i am fighting sleep as i type this! My room is great! Small but cozy I love it and it is so artsy...i am going to get so much done this year i think.

I have made a list of rules to follow this year:

1) Write daily for the hell of writing
2) Exercise at least twice a week
3) Keep up with my studies
4) Make sure i don't negelect my friends
5) Make sure i maintain a job this year
6) Stay Positive
7) Smile more

Those are the basics...lots has changed for me over the summer. I am puttin a new perspective on my life. So if you are reading this please be a doll and try and hold me to it... After all we are friends!

PSA Being Nice

Why is it so hard to receive kindness from others? Please tell me why i am wasting my time caring for all you people that i show generous amounts of kindness to. Am I wasting my time on people? Do they even care that i care? I am a nice person so why is my kindness getting thrown back in my face lately? I am starting to think it isn't worth it to be nice anymore and that i should be a bitch all the time from now on and lose my sense of humor and like do a 180 on my life and what i believe in...is that what everyone wants...it has to be unanimous.

Time to Go

I love obscure titles....anyhoo....it is now 4 days and counting till i move back to where home truly is for me...columbus.

Today was my last day at the day care (knock on wood!) I am so happy and relieveed.

This summer has been a summer of new experiences and new realizations abou people and myself and i think i have grown alot as a person and into myself this summer. I am so ready for school and i miss all my friends back at CSU and am so ready to be out of the house again...sorry mom. But it has definetly been a summer to remember.

But now it is time to go.....

This Is The Moment

So summer is almost over...and what a fucking awesome summer it has been! I have not traveled as much as i have this summer. Whther it was New Orleans, Virginia/DC or my weekend in ATL. It has been one big adventure after another. I am however ready to go back to school!

I am single again which i am actually happy about! Wow! I Just said that! I have decided to hold off til thinks in my life slow down abit before i start dating again.

I am quitting my job at the day care!!!! I have decided i really absolutly hate it there it is an awful work environment....and the majority of kids are awful. I need to start breaking in to my field of study more. I am going to see if i can find an internship in the atl area this next summer or take a job with the county doing filing stuff. But i am also getting a job in Columbus this year! i am going to England this may by hook or by crook....it has to happen!

I am so ready to be at school however i feel it is gonna be a stressful semester but i think i can handle it! I miss all you beautiful people in C-town! It is gonna be an awesome year! Are you ready?

Back to Before

HAve you ever stopped writing for a while and just sat and re read your whole blog? Well i just did and how things have changed. Well for starters i am single and happy for the first time in forever. I know shocker! Anyways i have decided i need to wait for the right person and not throw myself into just anyones arms. But that is not the topic of this post. The topic of this post is how so much has changed in my life in just a year alone. There are people i have mentioned that i was head over heels for i now hate...if you are the one guy i have "dated" that i let read this and you think it is you it is not ;) (Yes that was a shout out to you Brit Boy) anyways. I have also realized it is nice to have a break from your passion for a while...meaning this summer of theatre free activity has been good for me. (I just haven't been in any plays...doors in the world of theatre definitely opened for me this summer i have to projects under construction so to speak one goes up in February and the other one has yet to be born yet but soon i will be a busy boy). Other things have changed...i have decided next summer i need a better paying job...good bye day care hello possible internship. Even more things have changed...it has become a necessity for me to move out of the country and go to Europe...lots of things have happened to point me that way so i am going with the flow. I formulated friendships this year that will last for years to come i believe. It just over all has been a wonderfully exciting year and in three weeks a new one begins...oh i know you are like "umm not quite" but i am a future educator so my years start when i go back to school. Columbus get ready! Andrew is ready to take the world by storm this year!

PSA 2

Should one be worried when the person they are dating spends time talking to people on Chatroulette instead of talking to you? I think you should :(

PSA 1(2)

PSA of today: I think i have come to a realization that i am so used to failure in my relationships that if this one ends it will be my fault and that the reason is because i expected it to fail. that is all


Also from now on there will be normal bloggings that will have showtune titles and then PSAs.

KIDS

so i love my job don't get me wrong...but i hate whiners. This summer has made me realize...if i ever have kids i need then to skip the age where they whine all the time. That was just a PSA. So go on with your lives!

The Facebook Song

So ok....i may have made a starteling realization tonight. Not sure i am happy about it either. So i have a boyfriend. Yes we have met, and we have spent alot of time together. But i have seen him once since i have been back to GA from NOLA. That was a week ago, and now our July 4th weekend plans are shot cause he was in a car accident today. I was really worried about him but now i am worried that our relationship is doing a reverse affect and becoming an online relationship...we talk on facebook, skyp, and through texts all the time. I physically see him once in a while. And now with his car being down who knows when i will see him again before school....ugh

Stuck In Nutural

Ok so i was one of 30 people who got to hear the song that is my title today at today's first work shop of Morals: Keep Your Thoughts Quiet.

It is a new musical that will hit the public eye in Feburary 2011. Not on Broadway quite yet but in the world of Fayette County Georgia. My close friend is writer and director of the show, Stephanie Tabacco. I am going to help her in the creative sense on the sets or costumes she hasn't told me which yet.

The show is about a girl with a mental illness that causes her to lash out and hurt others physically and her relationship with a boy she hurt four years before their friendship began. The boy who is deaf in one ear and mute due to one of the girls fits, is deeply in love with her despite what happened. The girl however is scared to return the affection because she know her condition is dangerous to those around her.

The show consists of many characters and their consciences. The main girl has two however a good and bad which is part of her illness. The boy's conscious is his audible voice where as he only speaks in sign language. The show is a reflection on society and how everyone has a moral to their story whether good or bad whether we make it or whether it makes us.

If you are curious about the goings on of this show and our progress please click the link below:

http://www.wix.com/stephanietobacco/moralsthemusical

Anything Can Happen

So today i have been sending random texts saying "i miss u" and i sent one to my dear friend Allison Klem...who is better known as Peaches Galore in some circles lol. Anyway...she read my last post and asked how things are going....to be honest they are going swimmingly and i made a mountain out of a mole hill. Jake and i are doing grand it is 2 weeks going now. And i took him out in public to meet my friends last night and i think they approved. I adore him he makes me smile and laugh and he is sweet to me.

Well now summer really begins i just got back from my trip to New Orleans it was fantastic. I ate so much great food there. I would go back just to eat and listen to music. Pics will be on Facebook soon.

I am also happy to announce my laptop is fixed so i will be online more often than i have in the past few weeks.

Oh and the last news is i go back to work tomorrow and i am so excited....i miss my kids and making money....but this summer is going to be a summer of saving. i am going to london next may and i am paying for it myself alone cause i am going on my own not on study abroad....all may spending it with my friend Timon in London.

Well that is an update on life right now.

Without You

So i am in a relationship aain...and in one day i may have managed to fuck it all up. I forget not everyone things the way i do and that one Facebook status could ruin hopes.

So i am leaving to go on vacation next weekend, o big deal right....well it can be when you tell your boyfriend you are so excited to get to hang out with him next week and then turn around and say "i wish i was leaving for new orleans tomorrow instead of waiting a whole nother week at home...time to hang out with people" I know i sounded so enthused to hang out with people (sarcasm) but the thing is i am really excited to see my boyfriend and hang out with him and other friends but now he is mad because he couldn't see my enthusiasm because it was slightly laced with disdain for the fact i wanna go on vacation now but can't but I would take him with me on vacation if could.

Why i am i dumbass and say things without thinking who they might hurt eventhough i didn't think it would hurt anyone.

I adore you Jake and hope this is just a speed bump.

Here Alone

For the first time in a long while I feel utterly alone. I can't explain it. First of all it is storming…I hate rain and storms. Second of all I have gone an entire semester without a boyfriend….i miss the security of having someone (I never thought I would say that.) Third no of my besties are within my grasp (one is in Atlanta, on is almost in florida, and the other one is in fucking VA) and my ONE BESTIE FOR EVER ANDEVER is going to be at camp all summer. And lastly I am sitting in my dorm room alone….not a single roommate…..not a single person on my floor (possibly my building). I am utterly alone.

I even cried because I was sad to be alone. Those who know me well know I DON'T FUCKING CRY EVER!!!!!!!!!! I want a hug from a boy I want a kiss from a boy I wanna wake up next to a boy…..I want a boy who won't walk out on me! I need a vacation! I want to feel love again! Is it so wrong to want these few things in life? I thought I could be strong….but I am not as strong as I think I am.

I think these things quietly while all I really want to do is scream. But no I just sit here…alone.