All the World's A Stage

Waiting

2011-01-28T23:14:00.004-05:00

So guys, waiting pays off. I have been single for five months now. Crazy right? It actually has been the most stressful five months ever, as the few posts from last semester can show you. I haven't posted in forever I am fully aware. Too busy! Sad i know. Life hasn't really calmed down much but it has gotten better.

So i have been online dating again. I know I know...not the best way to find guys. Well this is the first time a guy has ever found me instead. One of the most gorgeous guys i have "met" started talking to me this past weekend on one of the sites i was on. I guess it was my turn to stop doing the looking and someone search me out cause that is sure what happened. At first i totally was like "this guy is just looking for one thing" but how wrong was i he asked me out on a date...a legit dinner and a movie date. He is the epitome of a southern gentleman. He is sweet asking about how i feel about things not pushing me to say or do anything i don't want to. I have very good feelings about him. He seems very mature. He is a poli sci major getting his masters here and very smart too. he is so wonderful to me, and i think it is time i don't have to be the provider...i always seem to fuck that up anyways.

I get to meet him next week (he has been in Savannah all week...great aunt passed away.) Who knows he might be the one or at least a real long relationship that will be an enjoyable experience that i can look back and smile and be glad i took the leap!

Hmm other things going on in my life...I am the tour manager for our children's show in the fall...i head to england for three weeks of study abroad in May...and hopefully getting an internship at Lexington Childrens theatre.

I guess that is about it right now! Finally a really cheerful post to counter act all my depressed and bitchy ones.

Waiting

2011-01-28T23:14:00.002-05:00

S.O.S.

2010-08-30T08:55:00.002-04:00

This weekend was fucked up! So there is this guy that i have liked alot since last year and well this year i started flirting, well his roommate told me this weekend he really likes me alot and would want to date me if he wasn't scared our friendship would fall apart if we ever broke up...i wouldn't let it ....but that is beside the point!

So knowing this i had already had plans to hangout with he, and his 2 roomies on friday night. Well i have a theatre department little brother, and the guy invited mine too because he was hanging out with me and the guy all afternoon...i should figured something was up but nope not till we left to go that night when the guy forced my little to ride with them leaving him to be stranded at their house since we were all going to be drunk. So anyways by the next day i was pretty sure of the guy's motives and i was so upset but i just let it go.

So saturday night was the foam party in housing on campus, and i invited all of them (the guy and his roomies) to come which they did and my little was with them when they got there and wouldn't leave the guys side.....WTF!!!!! And he went home with him that night...I was livid!!!!

The worst part is my little knew i like the guy and it didn't seem to phase him. He also however had his eye on one of my best friends. so WTF! He also claims not to rush into things but hello....in two days that in my book is rushing things!

I have decided i hate gay guys in this city, all they do is fuck over guys who are nice and just want a nice guy. well here they are all double crossing 2 faced bastards!

Astonishing

2010-08-25T22:50:00.002-04:00

So i don't remember if i have used my title before but the song fits what i am feeling. This week was an eye opener that i am finally really finding myself as a college student...i have grown up alot since my freshman year....i am still very intune with my inner child so don't fret!

I have just been on top of my studies and been socializing and having time for both in abundance and i am trying to find a job....i am trying very hard but it isn't working very well. Oh well.

I am back in writers meetings and i love it! I needed it in my life.

I also have my eye on a few new guys.....one is just adorable and he may be my date for a party friday! I am ildly excited about it...eventhough it isn't set in stone...but just the possibility excites me...I have never taken a date to a party.

Stay cute and i will update again soon

Good Morning Starshine

2010-08-18T10:08:00.002-04:00

so it is round two of my Monday/Wednesday classes...yipeee and i am trying to act like i don't feel crappy...i guess i really don't but i feel physically wierd today i am light headed but not nausious.....HMMMMMMM..... oh well. I am sitting here in my Government classs...blah....and then i have econ....double blah ...then childrens theatre....yay! then home work...no work out today cause i am sick. :( oh well. Hopefully i will feel better soon.....HOPEFULLY.....:S. First info from govt today: Greed is good!

PSA sweet Guys

2010-08-17T22:33:00.002-04:00

So i have made a new friend he is really adorable fun and cute but he is younger and idk if i should keeep going after younger guys

Adelaide's (Andrew's) Lament

2010-08-17T11:52:00.002-04:00

Ugh so it is day two of classes...and guess what....i am sick. I have somehow managed to come down with a cold overnight...literally. Yesterday at about lunch time or somewhere there after my throat started to be sore...then by about 8 last night my nose was like Niagra Falls...still is if anyone wants to ride a barrel down nasal drippage. Well all was well...i though hmm just a sinus infection...no big...which it still could be but prolly not. So in Theatre History my head starts pounding my nose is running the professor is talking...hell is breaking loose and i can't take it. In the middle of the professor's welcome back talk i have to leave to blow my fucking nose...I SIT IN THE FONT ROW!!!!! I first of all hate haveing to leave a class while a professor is lecturing or talking at all and i am appalled when it happens when i sit in the front. That is when i started to think i was really coming down with something...well after lunch (Now) i am in my room i just took my temperature and i have a slight fever 99.7 not really enough to be overtly concerned but still i am aggravated that is week one of classes and i feel like shit over night. FML

We're Just Friends

2010-08-12T23:24:00.002-04:00

I LOVE LOVE LOVE move in week!!!! So many new faces and friends. Reunions with old friends who you haven't seen all summer! GAH!!!!!! IT IS A PURE ADRENALINE RUSH!!!!!!! and yet draining....i am fighting sleep as i type this! My room is great! Small but cozy I love it and it is so artsy...i am going to get so much done this year i think.

I have made a list of rules to follow this year:

1) Write daily for the hell of writing
2) Exercise at least twice a week
3) Keep up with my studies
4) Make sure i don't negelect my friends
5) Make sure i maintain a job this year
6) Stay Positive
7) Smile more

Those are the basics...lots has changed for me over the summer. I am puttin a new perspective on my life. So if you are reading this please be a doll and try and hold me to it... After all we are friends!

PSA Being Nice

2010-08-07T15:24:00.002-04:00

Why is it so hard to receive kindness from others? Please tell me why i am wasting my time caring for all you people that i show generous amounts of kindness to. Am I wasting my time on people? Do they even care that i care? I am a nice person so why is my kindness getting thrown back in my face lately? I am starting to think it isn't worth it to be nice anymore and that i should be a bitch all the time from now on and lose my sense of humor and like do a 180 on my life and what i believe in...is that what everyone wants...it has to be unanimous.

Time to Go

2010-08-06T22:12:00.002-04:00

I love obscure titles....anyhoo....it is now 4 days and counting till i move back to where home truly is for me...columbus.

Today was my last day at the day care (knock on wood!) I am so happy and relieveed.

This summer has been a summer of new experiences and new realizations abou people and myself and i think i have grown alot as a person and into myself this summer. I am so ready for school and i miss all my friends back at CSU and am so ready to be out of the house again...sorry mom. But it has definetly been a summer to remember.

But now it is time to go.....

This Is The Moment

2010-07-29T13:58:00.002-04:00

So summer is almost over...and what a fucking awesome summer it has been! I have not traveled as much as i have this summer. Whther it was New Orleans, Virginia/DC or my weekend in ATL. It has been one big adventure after another. I am however ready to go back to school!

I am single again which i am actually happy about! Wow! I Just said that! I have decided to hold off til thinks in my life slow down abit before i start dating again.

I am quitting my job at the day care!!!! I have decided i really absolutly hate it there it is an awful work environment....and the majority of kids are awful. I need to start breaking in to my field of study more. I am going to see if i can find an internship in the atl area this next summer or take a job with the county doing filing stuff. But i am also getting a job in Columbus this year! i am going to England this may by hook or by crook....it has to happen!

I am so ready to be at school however i feel it is gonna be a stressful semester but i think i can handle it! I miss all you beautiful people in C-town! It is gonna be an awesome year! Are you ready?

Back to Before

2010-07-13T23:42:00.002-04:00

HAve you ever stopped writing for a while and just sat and re read your whole blog? Well i just did and how things have changed. Well for starters i am single and happy for the first time in forever. I know shocker! Anyways i have decided i need to wait for the right person and not throw myself into just anyones arms. But that is not the topic of this post. The topic of this post is how so much has changed in my life in just a year alone. There are people i have mentioned that i was head over heels for i now hate...if you are the one guy i have "dated" that i let read this and you think it is you it is not ;) (Yes that was a shout out to you Brit Boy) anyways. I have also realized it is nice to have a break from your passion for a while...meaning this summer of theatre free activity has been good for me. (I just haven't been in any plays...doors in the world of theatre definitely opened for me this summer i have to projects under construction so to speak one goes up in February and the other one has yet to be born yet but soon i will be a busy boy). Other things have changed...i have decided next summer i need a better paying job...good bye day care hello possible internship. Even more things have changed...it has become a necessity for me to move out of the country and go to Europe...lots of things have happened to point me that way so i am going with the flow. I formulated friendships this year that will last for years to come i believe. It just over all has been a wonderfully exciting year and in three weeks a new one begins...oh i know you are like "umm not quite" but i am a future educator so my years start when i go back to school. Columbus get ready! Andrew is ready to take the world by storm this year!

PSA 2

2010-07-07T22:34:00.001-04:00

Should one be worried when the person they are dating spends time talking to people on Chatroulette instead of talking to you? I think you should :(

PSA 1(2)

2010-07-01T22:54:00.003-04:00

PSA of today: I think i have come to a realization that i am so used to failure in my relationships that if this one ends it will be my fault and that the reason is because i expected it to fail. that is all

Also from now on there will be normal bloggings that will have showtune titles and then PSAs.

KIDS

2010-06-30T23:43:00.001-04:00

so i love my job don't get me wrong...but i hate whiners. This summer has made me realize...if i ever have kids i need then to skip the age where they whine all the time. That was just a PSA. So go on with your lives!

The Facebook Song

2010-06-29T00:10:00.002-04:00

So ok....i may have made a starteling realization tonight. Not sure i am happy about it either. So i have a boyfriend. Yes we have met, and we have spent alot of time together. But i have seen him once since i have been back to GA from NOLA. That was a week ago, and now our July 4th weekend plans are shot cause he was in a car accident today. I was really worried about him but now i am worried that our relationship is doing a reverse affect and becoming an online relationship...we talk on facebook, skyp, and through texts all the time. I physically see him once in a while. And now with his car being down who knows when i will see him again before school....ugh

Stuck In Nutural

2010-06-27T23:47:00.002-04:00

Ok so i was one of 30 people who got to hear the song that is my title today at today's first work shop of Morals: Keep Your Thoughts Quiet.

It is a new musical that will hit the public eye in Feburary 2011. Not on Broadway quite yet but in the world of Fayette County Georgia. My close friend is writer and director of the show, Stephanie Tabacco. I am going to help her in the creative sense on the sets or costumes she hasn't told me which yet.

The show is about a girl with a mental illness that causes her to lash out and hurt others physically and her relationship with a boy she hurt four years before their friendship began. The boy who is deaf in one ear and mute due to one of the girls fits, is deeply in love with her despite what happened. The girl however is scared to return the affection because she know her condition is dangerous to those around her.

The show consists of many characters and their consciences. The main girl has two however a good and bad which is part of her illness. The boy's conscious is his audible voice where as he only speaks in sign language. The show is a reflection on society and how everyone has a moral to their story whether good or bad whether we make it or whether it makes us.

If you are curious about the goings on of this show and our progress please click the link below:

http://www.wix.com/stephanietobacco/moralsthemusical

Anything Can Happen

2010-06-20T14:28:00.002-04:00

So today i have been sending random texts saying "i miss u" and i sent one to my dear friend Allison Klem...who is better known as Peaches Galore in some circles lol. Anyway...she read my last post and asked how things are going....to be honest they are going swimmingly and i made a mountain out of a mole hill. Jake and i are doing grand it is 2 weeks going now. And i took him out in public to meet my friends last night and i think they approved. I adore him he makes me smile and laugh and he is sweet to me.

Well now summer really begins i just got back from my trip to New Orleans it was fantastic. I ate so much great food there. I would go back just to eat and listen to music. Pics will be on Facebook soon.

I am also happy to announce my laptop is fixed so i will be online more often than i have in the past few weeks.

Oh and the last news is i go back to work tomorrow and i am so excited....i miss my kids and making money....but this summer is going to be a summer of saving. i am going to london next may and i am paying for it myself alone cause i am going on my own not on study abroad....all may spending it with my friend Timon in London.

Well that is an update on life right now.

Without You

2010-06-04T15:00:00.002-04:00

So i am in a relationship aain...and in one day i may have managed to fuck it all up. I forget not everyone things the way i do and that one Facebook status could ruin hopes.

So i am leaving to go on vacation next weekend, o big deal right....well it can be when you tell your boyfriend you are so excited to get to hang out with him next week and then turn around and say "i wish i was leaving for new orleans tomorrow instead of waiting a whole nother week at home...time to hang out with people" I know i sounded so enthused to hang out with people (sarcasm) but the thing is i am really excited to see my boyfriend and hang out with him and other friends but now he is mad because he couldn't see my enthusiasm because it was slightly laced with disdain for the fact i wanna go on vacation now but can't but I would take him with me on vacation if could.

Why i am i dumbass and say things without thinking who they might hurt eventhough i didn't think it would hurt anyone.

I adore you Jake and hope this is just a speed bump.

Here Alone

2010-05-20T23:41:00.001-04:00

For the first time in a long while I feel utterly alone. I can't explain it. First of all it is storming…I hate rain and storms. Second of all I have gone an entire semester without a boyfriend….i miss the security of having someone (I never thought I would say that.) Third no of my besties are within my grasp (one is in Atlanta, on is almost in florida, and the other one is in fucking VA) and my ONE BESTIE FOR EVER ANDEVER is going to be at camp all summer. And lastly I am sitting in my dorm room alone….not a single roommate…..not a single person on my floor (possibly my building). I am utterly alone.

I even cried because I was sad to be alone. Those who know me well know I DON'T FUCKING CRY EVER!!!!!!!!!! I want a hug from a boy I want a kiss from a boy I wanna wake up next to a boy…..I want a boy who won't walk out on me! I need a vacation! I want to feel love again! Is it so wrong to want these few things in life? I thought I could be strong….but I am not as strong as I think I am.

I think these things quietly while all I really want to do is scream. But no I just sit here…alone.

Brush Up On Your Shakespeare

2010-05-17T15:52:00.002-04:00

So i am currently very excited for my friends who are in London but at the same time extremely jealous! I wish i were there right now typing this from a flat or from a table in a pub, but alas i am sitting here...in the CCT building computer lab...waiting for my next class to start...oh the joys of science...(gagging on my own word vomit there)! Any way i have a movie date two nights from now with my dear friend Cassie we are gonna watch the amazing Connie and Carlawoot! and then this weekend i head home to go to a chorale concert of a friend of mine that should be fun and exciting as it has been the past five years i have attended. But tomorrow i dread....my first speech in my Communications class...blech!!!!!! I hate public speaking...acting and speech giving are two different things, people! But it is a simple speech that we initially are going to build up into a a stronger speech next week. This Maymester is gonna be interesting but after it is over i only have two more core classes to complete till i am done with them forever!!!!!!!! WAHOOOOOOO!!!!

so as The Bard would say...Alls well That Ends well!

If You Were Gay

2010-05-15T01:42:00.002-04:00

i think tonight i lost hope in gay men. i think i now only know two other gay men with the same morals as i have. I am sorry that i don't sleep with everyone who would let me in bed with them. NO STIRNGS ATTACHED is a sorry excuse for being a slut...the one person i have ever had a relationship with that i actually thought was genuine tonight told me he thought our first night together was going to be a NSA thing and yet he was the one who asked me out...oh and then dumped me too....IRONIC ISN"T IT......FUCK IT!
American gays don't get it. They think if you have a dick you will just jump in bed i am sorry i started out liking girls and i didn't just hop in bed with them either...i was brought up that sex is a special thing between you and someone you really care about...it has to have meaning...i mean fooling around is one thing but even to me there has to be some kind of connection before i will do anything. I am so shocked to be finding out that people think it is just a friendly thing....it is not not in my book...i am sorry if i sound prudish but it just the way i feel.

Another thing that pisses me off. Why are people so shallow that they have to have a "type" i really couldn't tell you what my type is....i have dated so many different kinds of people...it is annoying to think i can't have a chance at someone because they only date jocks....SHUT UP YOU SHALLOW DIPSTICK (you don't deserve anyone.) I am sorry if this pushes buttons but i can't stand shallow people.

Once again aggravation has brought me to post for the first time in a while.

Ain’t Got No

2010-04-01T17:39:00.001-04:00

I am tired of not having money for things. Living off my parents is causing this problem. We are financially unstable. I am about to have to turn down one of my dream roles because I don't have a job to pay for gas money that my parents won't pay. Usually I turn down roles for no time…not this time and I am so pissed off. And I know it is not entirely my parents fault but they aren't helping either, and I am sorry but when it comes to my career lately they aren't backing my up 100% so I am getting a little upset with them. I have been stressed out over not doing enough so I have been doing more but with in THEIR peramiters…which is only school related right now. I FUCKING HATE IT! How am I supposed to ever become better if they aren't helping me to succeed and take roles where I am handed them? iIt shows I am talented but if I keep turing things down cause my parents can't help and I can't afford it on my own I am never going to get anywhere. I know I need a job and I have one during the summer but next fall I am getting one here so I can get cash flow of my own…my parents are holding me down and I AM DONE WITH IT!

The Man Of My Dreams

2010-03-30T19:29:00.001-04:00

So I am always talking about him on here well…I think it may be over for real. And I am dying inside. His reasoning is that he can realistically be with me and I feel like it is cause he has a hard time seeing the future. I am sorry but who said the future isn't realistic? NO ONE! And if he is reading this I am meaning no offense…you know I vent on here. I am mad I am furious right now and I think I have every right to be but at the same time I am still in love with you…you did this once before…so I think you just need me to back off let you get your life in order and just be a friend. Once I get to England we will see where we both are. All I am saying is I love you and it won't change and while it is not feesible now for us to be together, you shouldn't just kill your future. I know I make you happy because you wouldn't keep coming back if that were the case and while you may have felt guilty most people don't try to show affection unless there is still something there…I am sorry but in reality these are facts. People just aren't guilted into affection. But you know what I don't care…I am your friend first and I am ok with that and whatever happens will happen. But I still have hope…even if you gave up on it.

I Got Rhthym

2010-03-29T23:28:00.002-04:00

So tonight was our final tech night till dress rehearsals for Crazy For You. We found out that we won't have a full orchestra but we will have a band...which isn't that bad people...anyhoo, tonight's run went really well and i got misty eyed during curtain call cause i think we will pull it off beautifully and we could open tomorrow if necessary.

Eventhough i bash myself for just being and understudy i am thoroughly enjoying myself out there with the cast. The moments we have are priceless. I am beginning to realize how much i learned this semester as an actor....understudies do more work than anybody first of all...especially when you are the understudy for 12 people...i have 12 different personalities to pull from when i go on for someone. It has been a trying semester but it will all pay off next week.

To my cast members....you are all amazing and i love all of you. Go break a leg!

To the crew...Ya'll rock and make our lives a little less stressful...and you make it all run like clock work.

To shane...you are amazing and we would have been up a creek with out you. Thanks for being a life saver!

To Brenda....Your vision is about to come true however slightly altered from the beginning but it will still be spectacular. You should be proud...I know we are! And Lexi is the cutest thing on the planet!

well that is my blurb for my final tech night before dress rehearsals.

Positive

2010-03-27T12:31:00.002-04:00

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! I hate q 2 q so much now as an actor in a musical...........we have been here 2 hours and just got to the second song. I know it is a necessity but why must it take so long? Smile! Keep positive. Don't lose heart....fuck that shit! I wanna go home....i am hungry tired and cranky. Cory Paul i love ya but i want ya back i am so stressed out.

The Bitch Of Living

2010-03-25T13:28:00.002-04:00

Who has the answer? Umm please tell me why W.O.W consumes peoples lives? It is a cult game i know...but really must you make everything around you in reality go just right so it won't affect your gameplay?

My roommate thinks so. When he is playing WOW i am not allowed to be on the wireless net work because MY COMPUTER messes up his game when there are 3 other computers in this room on the wireless let alone the other people in the fucking building...but no he blames it on me. He also must have peace and quite when he is playing so that communication over headset with his boyfriend is not impaired...sorry to say but who died and made you king of the universe...no one. On the plus side his grades will start dropping because as of right now he is skipping class to play the fucking game. Maybe then he will wake up an see that it is time to go back to reality where people still don't like him.

Sorry was that harsh? whoops i forgot to continue caring.

Once Upon A Time

2010-03-22T15:41:00.002-04:00

So this is a random post which i hardly ever do. But i just happened to just sitt and read my blog for a while from the beginning of this year to now. I could compile a novel of my life from this thing...i crack up, i teared up, i got mad again, and it was all beautiful. The memories. The heartbreaks. The adventures. Life is what you make it and right now aside from the mundane things (rehearsals) i really have nothing to complain about. I am finally content with my love life, where i am physicaly, and my friends rock. Things could be worse i could be dead. But I am not. And my life could be worse. I could be alone. But once again, i am not.

Friends come and go but you know what the ones that matter are always there. and i think i finally have found that set. And also i think i finally have realized love is there for me but i have to wait and i know what i am waiting for and it is coming closer and closer. I made the realization as i read my blog. There is one person who always lifts me up when boys get me down and it is the one guy i have had the best relationship with ever and it isn't even a physical relationship yet. He lives across the Atlantic Ocean, but that is ok i think we both finally have come to terms with the fact we were meant for each other and that we will never be happy till we are together. One of the reasons i am moving to England not the main one but it is a deciding factor now. It is an adventure in itself and i love adventures and challenges...and our love is strong, people! I think i can finally stop searching and accept the fact that he is the one, because nothing better has been found and i have had physical relationships and i am still not extremely happy. I just have to talk to him and i beam...i haven't even touched him yet, and he is my world. I think about him all the time even when we were both dating other people.
Only one person has made me think other wise about him and he can't commit to a relationship right now for the fact he is moving and can't do the long distance thing. Brit boy didn't think he could either but he keeps coming back to me and i keep going back to him, so there is definitely a pull between the two of us. And it keeps getting stronger.
So this post was supposed to be random but i guess i had more to say than i thought. And i thought for a moment that the title wouldn't fit this post now but it does, cause every fairy tale love story starts with the cliche line "Once Upon A Time..." and this is my own fairy tale so why not title it as such. "Once upon a time there was an ocean and it separated two lovers.....one day they would meet....this is their story."

Come To Your Senses

2010-03-20T00:47:00.000-04:00

One day someone can enter your life and turn your world upside down. This happened a total of three times in my life. And this last time I am not sure where I landed….my head is still spinning. I am not sure if I am happy or sad with myself…or him for that matter. What I have is complicated for sure. I mean who makes out with someone they know they can’t be with right now because the person cannot expect to be tied down when they are moving to bum fuck Texas. I want to continue our friendship but does it change from here…or do I continue as if things haven’t changed. I can’t actually tell if things have changed or not but I think they have…he doesn’t text me back and I felt like a third wheel all night and like I was imposing. I know he didn’t do anything with the other guys he was around this week but all the same I feel like he found them more interesting than me. But his affection never seemed less until tonight…even last night he kissed me…tonight I mean I guess I could have but it just didn’t seem right at the moment…but now I regret it. Will things change? I know I will move on but what will happen if I do. He will have no one. My life is complicated….i always have someone to run to…..too bad he lives across an ocean. What is to happen to me now…am I to just forget…who am I kidding…this week I want to remember and at the same time I want to forget it happened. It was a joy and a fuck up…I am in love I am in lust. I don’t know where to turn. I don’t regret anything. But I am not sure I am fully happy with how I handled some things. Jealousy is a pain in the ass and I wasn’t being fair…cause we weren’t technically together. But when you spend time with a person physically there is a sense of attachment, and sadly possession…well for me anyways. I HATE IT NOW. This week has been the Goliath of emotional roller coaster rides. I needed this week but now I am at a loss. Sure I told him I was fine….did he really believe me….i mean hello the minute he told me the way he felt things kinda took a new course I immediately became kinda different. Maybe all this feeling is my own fault. I could have acted different yesterday….i should have asked more questions before she set me up with him…that was my first boo boo. But I am not sure she even knew what he wanted at the time…he still doesn’t know what he wants….i adore him….and yet he frustrates me to no end. He is perfect for me and at the same time he baffles me…I get along with him and I question him all the time. Where did it go wrong…did it go wrong. I think I am crazy.

In Short

2010-03-03T18:10:00.003-05:00

I hate him! There are some people who just need to grow up and get over themselves......MY ROOMATE IS CASE A!

I am sorry but we had an agreement when we started rooming together that i could sing and he wouldn't complain unless he was doing homework. I am sorry but when di playing WOW constitute as homework...oh that is right it isn't. So you know what Kris....you can get over yourself or go die...right now i could care less which one you do. I am a generally nice person but this is the last straw...you cannot walk over me. I am not below you and if you think you are a god then you are sadly mistaken...and i am not being arrogant here....but i don't see you hanging out with friends...oh wait you don't have any...and i can't imagine why not? (That is a lie i can). I am sorry friends am i being harsh....good i needed to grow some. I know for sure now there is no way i will ever room with him again...it was the worse mistake ever....he is a bitch so if you are asked to room with him next year....please do yourself a favor and decline. He doesn't know how to handle other people. He is a diva and will expect you to bend over backwards for him. FUCK THAT SHIT I AM NOT HIS MOTHER OR FATHER OR MAID. GET OVER YOURSELF!

A Way Back To then

2010-02-18T13:09:00.003-05:00

Have you ever pulled out pictures of yourself from when you were like two? Have you ever looked at it an been like...WOW I haven't changed that much...or Wow How could people not tell how i was going to turn out? Well this happened to me. I looked at the picture above, and was like wow i just got bigger really. It is crazy to think about what all i have been through just to end up a taller skinnier version of how i was at age 1...oh and smarter.

It was just a strange feeling. Plus i realized i miss my old house more than i thought. I have so many more memories of happiness there than in our new home...life went down hill.
Things i miss:

Loads of friends to play with
A tree to Climb
Woods to explore
a swing set
a real fire place
the Cul-De-Sac
A BIG window by my bed
My own closet
a window over the sink where i could yell out at dad when he was doing yard work
The light pole in our front yard
The endless amount of flowers
Block Parties
Hide and seek for hours
building forts
riding bikes
drawing with chalk
Even the time out chair
the banisters between the dinning room and living room
the big window in mom and dad's room where Precious and Shadow used to sunbathe
wheelbarrow rides by dad or grandpa
planting and poping the forget me nots by the side walk or all the yellowbells
watching birds eat at the bird feeder on the dog wood out back
helping dad paint the shed
helping him build the shed
going in and around the shed
helping and playing in the veggie garden

So many memories
I could go on all day

I miss it and being a kid

No Day But Today

2010-01-19T17:42:00.002-05:00

WOW! I mean WOWWW! I hate assuming things and all but i am pretty sure my assumption is correct. I don't know how it feels. I don't want to know. I am scared for him. I am scared.

Diagnosed with HIV!? Really? I mean i always knew it was a possibility but it is just something i was like it could never happen to someone i know....not someone i see everyday.

It was a wake up call. Life is fragile....and short. And that thought truly terrified me today. I am still kind of mildly shocked.

For those who read my blog alot i know this is my first post in a while and i just need to let off a weight.

If you are religious in any way just please keep my roommate in your prayers and thoughts....he is going through a lot and if the above is true he will be going through a lot more.

The Riddle

2009-11-09T22:53:00.002-05:00

WHY ARE SOME GUYS TOTAL DOUCHES! I am sick and tired of my friends getting hurt. Especially Robin. She deserves ten times better than what she is delt! I love her to death and hate what guys do to her. Especially the last guy! He treated her so nice at first then he did some really and i mean REALLY SHITTY THINGS TO HER! some things it took me a while to forgive him for...but Robin finally made me see his good side and she was happy so i was happy.....and lately they have been really cute! And she really liked him. Well he is a douche and i am livid at him and i think i am done forgiving him because this isn't the first time he has hurt one of my friends and i am done with it! ROBIN YOU ARE LOVED AND DON"T LET HIM THINK OTHER WISE! H*UGS AND KISSES TO YOU!

I've Got Rhythm

2009-11-02T18:43:00.000-05:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!TODAY HAS BEEN THE BEST DAY OF MY COLLEGE CAREER YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So today i got cast in my first Mainstage production at CSU.......CRAZY FOR YOU! For those who don't know i did this same show in 2007....i am so excited to be doing it again. However this time i am an Understudy for all the cowboys so my work load is larger cause i must know all their lines and harmonies....shit right? Well today i also found out i have to know all the male parts incase on of the other understudies gets sick as well so i must know the entire show backwards and forewards....ahem! well today i decided if all else fails i will be able to write my dissertation on Crazy For You when i graduate! :) I am so pumped people!

One Short Day

2009-10-29T12:16:00.002-04:00

So last Thursday was my Birthday! I am now 20 and a week old! I am old...just admit it, I know it is the truth. I had the best birthday ever this year. I pretty much had a week long celebration....everything went the way it should. My actual B-day was spent with friends and family. My parents came down for the night and took me and about 12 friends to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner (I just finished the left over wings two nights ago...Yum!) It was perfection i got to spend it with my besties of my life! The pictures taken were numerous. After dinner and cake (provided by my Mom's co-worker...another YUM!) me and my friends went and caused mayhem at the local Toys R Us. Glorious, I know! Then we all went back to my dorm and watched Frankenstein and the Bride of Frankensein....as part of my month long celebration of Monster Movie Marathon (This weekend it is Hocus Pocus, Carrie, The Blair Witch project and more!) Well that was my actual birthday...the following day was spent shopping with my friend Kelly. So much fun and My halloween costume is now complete thanks to this trip. It was fun and i had Sushi that night too which was delicious....!!!!!! The best part of the weekend madness was Saturday...if you are standing while reading this...SIT DOWN!!!! So me and my friend Jamie Packed our backs friday night and at 9 AM Saturday morning we started the long trek to Charlotte, NC. Why you ask? Well we had the idea a few weeks back to go to this concert entitled the Gravediggers ball...why again you ask? Well because ....get ready for it.....the backstreet Boys were perfoming. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS THE MOST AWESOME EXPERIENCE I HAVE EVER HAD. We had to dress up for it because it was a costume concert. She went as a sexy army girl and i went as Edward Cullen. Two bands played before the boys. Priscilla Renea and a MJ tribute band called Who's Bad....then it was the wonderfullness known as the Backstreet Boys. I am so excited that they are touring again. Well after the concert we headed back. We got back to columbus around 6am after stopping twice to nap and getting pulled over in SC for going 19 over (we got a warning was all...nice Police officer). Now it is back to reality and normality and auditions in like four or five hours.....AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! So must go finish preparing and hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Crazy For You

2009-10-17T23:42:00.003-04:00

Why!? Why won't you just open up to me why won't you just talk to me. Don't be scared of me...what happened that night was out of character for me i still question what was going on in my head...and now you are scared to hang out with me alone....i like you so much you couldn't possibly know and you have me dangling by a string. I would bend over backwards. I just want to embrace you for hours and talk like we used to...but nope no more. You have become harder to read, you won't open up. I wish you would try again but no you won't, you are too scared and i am to worried to confront you about it because i don't know what to say. You are cute but disagree with me...i want to give up on you but i can't seem to. I just wish you understood...but you don't. I am crazy for you Michael.

There's a Fine Fine Line

2009-10-04T21:35:00.003-04:00

So i don't understand guys...one day they are head over heels for you the next they get scared and just want to be friends why is that? Well to tell you the truth it is getting to be really old really fast in my life...i am finding more guys to be scared to be with me because i am too nice to them...wtf people....i am really confused don't people want to be with someone who is always gonna be there for them, to be polite to them, be able to have a good time with them, and feel safe with them....well someboys are just strange i guess but i am always getting dumped because i "am too good for them" HELLO I DON'T CARE i want to be with you. it doesn't matter if you have done bad things in your past, or have a really bad home life....i like you it shouldn't matter should it...i like you for who you are now and someone i think you should be should have been or need to be....i like you for you...so please quit being dumb.

Things Are Looking Up

2009-09-27T01:23:00.002-04:00

So tonight i had a night out with my girls...love you all (Robin, Janine, and Jennifer). After the shittiest week which got progressively worse everyday I just needed it! I am so glad i did too. I feel so much better about my life. Earlier today Hannah Montana came on my shuffle and Nobody's Perfect just spoke numbers to me. I realized that every one has bad days, weeks, etc and that i needed to look on the bright side. Well as most of you can see relationship wise lately my life has been the pits, utter failure. Anyhoo....tonight the honest to god love of my life messaged me to tell me they loved me and to keep my chin up....everything that happened earlier this week no seems superfluous...i still have a future with someone and can wait and should wait for them since all i have found since that person has been disappointment and unsatisfiedness. But life is looking up so those who have been there for me this week in any way shape or form i adore you all soooo much and am so greatful to you for keeping me from doing insane things this week. I love you guys so much. If i didn't have friends like you who knows what i would have done this week. But it is over now and tomorrow is a new day and in the words of Hannah Montana......Nobody's Perfect.

On My Own

2009-09-26T11:57:00.002-04:00

well people my suspiscions were correct....i was being toyed with. I am now alone and HE got the prize..once more. Why can't i win. IS it so wrong that i want a nice sweet guy who trusts me makes me feel good, and at the same time likes me for me. I am tired of waiting. everytime i think i have found it i get left and hurt. It isn't fair especially when the person goes to someone i know. I can't stand it. FUCK LOVE! FUCK LIKE! FUCK RELATIONSHIPS! I am done.

You Can't Win

2009-09-25T21:19:00.002-04:00

So i thought the weekend might bring me some uplifted spirts.....wishes don't come true apparently. Once again i am compeating with another guy for one guys affection. Well i hope he realizes that the other guy is a slut...and toys with guys emotions and then will be in depression for months and months when you break up with him. I on the other hand am sweet and sencere and loyal...and if worse come to worse and we do break up i tried to still maintain some sort of friendship. Well maybe the two of you are meant for eachother since you have been toying with me for the past few days making me feel great when all else goes wrong well today It is your fault things went wrong in my day....and i would love to drown my sorrows in alcohol tonight at the party i was invited to but i don't think i will cause you are going with him and I feel rejected...and honestly sickened to see you with him...so i guess i will just stay at home tonight and do nothing...
Yes i am angry but hopefully you will prove me wrong...i don't know though. :'(

The World has Gone Insane

2009-09-24T13:40:00.005-04:00

So i am really sad today because i was looking foreward to having a non-shit filled week....well my hopes slowly dropped from high on monday...to almost invisible today. Monday was fantastic and put me in a great mood...tuesday rolled around and i couldn't find my dorm keys at the end of the day....still not horrible....Ryan was there. Wednesday came. Not only were my keys still missing....my bike has been stolen too i believe. It wasn't in the bikeroom yesterday or today. Now on top of everything my phone is lost or stolen i will go with the latter cause it was on and fully charged the last time i saw it and that was almost 2hrs ago when i was at lunch after just charging it. I wanna cry right now. I am now to 3 weeks of complete agony and misery.....can't i be happy for just like a few days more than i get dealt out?

A Step Too Far

2009-09-24T00:17:00.003-04:00

Nice...what is nice? I am constantly being told i am a GENUINeLY nice person...i have come to pride myself in that. I have deep consideration and concern for others. I am really sympathetic if you know me really well. If you do know me well....i listen well and give great hugs and try to make things better. Well lately i have encountered some situations where my NICENESS has gotten on my nerves. I try to be positive and kind but deep down i want to say SCREW IT! the past two and a half weeks have been shit. Only just this week have they started getting better...thanks Ryan. But the past two weeks have been filled with both personal failures, broken relationships, lonelyness, etc. Well while i am the genuinely nice guy, i tend to bottle my emotions. Well, yesterday that emotional bottle POPPED. I usually don't ventto anyone but my besties Ally and Emily....niether were availiable. GRRR i was so mad at things going on that i was shaking and coould feel my heart beat in my ears. I NEEDED TO TALK TO SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!!! so i was going through my phone and called my beloved Megan. She was just the voice i needed and she didn't even give me advice or tell me what to do she just listened and i felt so much better. However, things started to go down hill again cause the continuing problems from the weeks before were coming back into focus in rehearsal and roomate situations. And to be the cherry on top of the ice cream sundae of cruddiness....today i found my bike to be missing and my keys to my dorm missing...and while Ryan has been keeping me busy (not like that) he is still getting over his ex so i have to be careful not to scare him off.....I REALLY LIKE HIM PEOPLE....He is so sweet and cuddly and makes me want to do things that i usually dis regard like clean my room...shocking right for those who know me. I think deep down he does like me but because of the given situation he is trying to conceal it....i mean he might think i wouldn't like being rebound boy....I LIKE YOU COME ON AND DATE ME!

Forget About the Boy

2009-09-07T11:44:00.002-04:00

so world it has come to this I am torn between two people neither of which are still relationally attached to me. Both have been one just up until last night. And once until some point this summer. I don't wanna lose contact with the one from this summer because he a really sweet and awesome person and i adore him still more than i should which makes it hard for me to fully connect with the new person. But the new person was a rushed into thing and i know that but what ticks me off is he is the one who said we should and now he wants to back out and i don't think that is fair to me that he waits it out three weeks and says we should develop a friendship first. Now the problem is do i start dating other people while developing this friendship or do I just wait it out. God it is time like these i wish i just stay single and a bachelor all my life because I always get attached and then people either want more or i get too attached and scare them off. Relationships have become a whirlwind of disappointment for me. If anyone out there has any advice for me please give it to me I am on my last try at this dating thing....HELP!

Saturday Night in the City

2009-08-23T15:54:00.003-04:00

So last night was amazing...well lets actually start with Friday night....Nick Joseph party......12 freshmen came with me i made tons of new friends at the party five of which i have been hanging out with all weekend.....Griffin, Ashley, Kelly, Corey and Michael (Michael i just met yesterday). Anyhoo. It was fun and crazy night. Then last night Ashley, Griffin, Kelly, and Michael and i went to see the final night of Rocky Horror. We got all dressed up for it too. It was so much fun. I love Rocky Horror Show. But now it is back to the world of college and homework....UGH basic design is the bane of existance. Acting 1 Autobiography isn't much better.

What Is This Feeling

2009-08-19T14:06:00.002-04:00

Ok as most of you who know me know....people do not get under my skin on a regular basis and i usually do not talk about individuals on my blog but today i am just pissed off with one person. MY ROOMMATE! He is the biggest diva ever not at what he does...no that would be ok....no he is a diva in every day life. He is the most inconsiderate person i have ever encountered thus far. I was pushed over the edge moments ago when he comes into our room where i am obviously taking a nap...talking loudly on his cell phone to his mom and instaed of levaing his shit there and going out into the living room he decides to curl up in his bed and continue talking to her right there. And once their conversation was over i thought ok good he will be quiet now...hell no he wasn't....he proceeded to call his boyfriend. UGH I AM LIVID so instaed of napping for another 15 mins i got up to blog about it so i wouldn't kill or yell at him cause it isn't in my nature, but one more incident and i will.....i mean two nights ago when i was in the room for hours listening to music before he got there and he expected me to get up and leave the room or turn my music down so he could talk on the phone there instead of just getting his lazy ass off the bed to go sit in the living room so he could talk on the phone...oh and if the moving wasn't bad enough he had to accentuate the fact he was being made to move when he didn't want to by slamming the bedroom door and pouting.....I will make it through this year but i think i made the worse mistake when i chose to room with him this year....it will not happen again!

Back to School

2009-08-08T22:52:00.002-04:00

So it is that time of the year again who knew it would come so soon....

Well an update. I have finished my first summer at All Stars Academy and am now a staff member who is on hand there for until i decide to quit lol. I will be working there when ever i am home for multiple weeks at a time to make money...yay! So i will be back at Christmas time and next summer again.

The bittersweet part of my summer has come and gone. Snoopy ended :(/:D NEw friends will be missed but those who are still in high school i will see all of your glorious faces at Thes Con '10 so all is well. The show ended with a kick ass final week full of scraeming fans and wonderful evenings. So we ended with a huge bang.

Now though due to high stress levels and no relaxation all summer i am very glad not to be working on any of the first shows at CSU this year....whew! I plan to relax and spend time with friends that i have missed all summer long! I am so ready to hit the road and be back in C-town! And thank god for my bestie having a new apartment warming party on Monday cause now i don't have to wait for move in to see their smiling faces. Move in thursday as well as Rocky Horror that night, un pack friday and convo that night and then groceries and other stuff saturday and woodstock party that night.....first weekend back is packed...what is new lol!

Time to hit the road and get ready for a fun filled joy ride of a yewar! Wahooo!

PEOPLE

2009-07-28T22:38:00.002-04:00

Grrrrrr! People irk me! I don't understand why some people lead other people on...don't get me wrong i know i am bad at it myself, but if you talk to someone as if you like them and i mean really like them, and then suddenly stop texting them or responding to messages else where for no verbaly stated reason it is very degrading and disheartening.

PEOPLE! If you are tired of someone keeping in constant contact with them tell them to back off a little do not just stopp responding...that is rude in itself. I am talking to one person and if they read this they know who they are....

(getting off my soapbox now)

The Big Bow Wow

2009-07-25T22:54:00.004-04:00

Wow what a week it has been! Our shows have been very interesting all week at Snoopy. We started out really rough this week with a less than desirable flop of a first night back. The acting and dancing was good but the songs were pitiful.....grrr. Well on top of that our Snoopy has contracted a kidney stone so with a one day notice one of male ensemble members had to become Snoopy on Friday night.....(he is our only male ensemble meber this week! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!)

It was one of our best shows...definently the funniest! We were having a rolicking good time backstage! Lines were twisted and flopped but it made for great shtick! And i had my best night vocally! Yes Thanks Jerry!

Well tonight our normal Snoopy was back...still hasnt passed the kidney stone...and he went on and gave a kick ass performance while in uber amounts of pain! God bless you kid! I couldnt ask for a better pet lol! It was once again a quite successful night.....tomorrow should be interesting. I CANT WAIT!

Here I Go Again

2009-07-21T00:41:00.002-04:00

So life has been rocky the past month or so. I hate being home. I want to be back at school. I never have time to myself anymore. And i hardly get to see my friends. Someof this has to do with the parentals but work and Snoopy have consumed my life. Don't get me wrong i am enjoying what i do...but lately i have been asking my self if it is really worth the burned out ness i am living.

On top of that i am taking a break with said guy....i miss him uberly...and he misses me too...but the lack of physicallity was getting to us...one day we will manage to be together we both feel it. I know i sound cheesy and love strung...but something about him is unlike anything i have ever experience and i have to keep the hope there to get by without him.

Tonight was interesting though i hung out with my former rommie...adore him....but we almost got jumped tonight at our local shopping mall.....SCARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we were just walking when these three uberly scketch guys came from nowhere and started following us but not in a normal fashion...they were like jumping behind things when we would glance behind us. so we hid inside William Sonoma for a good ten minutes and the coast was clear so we went to the book store. We weren't there for more than ten minutes when the same three guys started to slowly circle the aisle we were on .....Jordan said he knew one of the guys and that guy murmmered something bashing homosexuals...jordan knew it would be bad if we stayed so we went to starbucks which was our final escape we had to make cause they finally disappeared.....but they were so scketch and i have never feared for my life so much!!!!!

Another plus to my life was finally seeing Harry Potter last night. Great movie....i might give it a review later this week.

sorry to sound bummed but life sucks right now.

Nice Work If You Can Get It

2009-06-21T22:19:00.002-04:00

So I am now employed!!!!!! Yay! I am a summer camp teacher at a a day care in Newnan...yay All Stars Academy! I have only worked three days...this week will be my first full week....(insert excitement and nerves here.) Last week was my like training period so i didn't hev the kids by myself...this week i think i will. I am already in love with my group of kids....however high strung they can be at times...individually they are very sweet! Plus I already have a fave....he is adorable and attached himself to me from day one an d he is the nicest kid ever.

In addition to work I am also working on Snoopy! Which it is going really well...i am slightly behind everyone else in lines and solos but by the end of this week i hope to have caught up. I love the show. Our directors are great and the cast is superb. I am working with great people and we really mesh well! I can't wait till we open this show is going to kick butt!

aside from all that the downside is I want to leave home so bad. I am on edge with my parents about every little thing while i have done a few things to get under their skin I feel they are still traeting me like a child.....HELLO! I TURN TWENTY IN FIVE MONTHS AS OF TOMORROW!!!!! I FOR SURE AM NOT A CHILD!!!!! BACK OFF!!!!!!
I also am missing columbus and my college friends i plan on hanging out with a few in the next few weeks though so it might take my mind off the missing.

Well that is a brief update...if you read this and i know you...just wanna say i miss you oodles and think you should call or text me soon cause i am bored stiff at home!

~Andrew

Stranger in this World

2009-05-28T11:50:00.002-04:00

So I have met this really amazing guy, he is absolutly fantastic....we are almost the same person except for two factors...we look nothing alike and he is BRITISH! Like he lives there and everything! He is a triple threat by theatre standards and he works as an assistant dance instructor. He is the most adorable guy you could get to know. And he is a generally sweet guy who makes sure you feel great about yourself... lol. I hope one day to meet him in person cause he is really awesome and has become a great friend thus far!

Craig you are fantastically amazing!

Being Alive

2009-05-19T15:47:00.002-04:00

So today was kinda chill. I went to class, had lunch, and went to class again. Now i am here at the computer again.

Ironically all of my friends have been uber poetic lately on their blogs so i thought i should be too. But sadly as i sit here and try to be poetic and inspirational in my thoughts, they just won't flow...at all.

Life is good...except i scared the crap out of my mom unintentionally last night. so as you all know i am in Snoopy the musical...well...i had rehearsal last night back home so i had to drive from Columbus to Fairburn (not actually home but within 30 miles). It is about an hour and fifteen minute drive and because of traffic it was about an hour and a half drive to get there. Well coming back...at 9PM mind you....there was a little traffic till i got to I-185....then it dies after like 9 and there is no one on 185. So the traffic once again added fifteen minutes to my travel time which is usually about an hour and fifteen, but since there was virually no one but me on 185 i decided to drive about 50 miles per hour down the interstate...to conserve gas. Well I blare my music and apparently my mom tried to call me around 10:40 to see where i was and why i wasn't back so of course i didn't answer. So i finally pull in to the parking deck at 11....i left at 9....2 hours later...I call mom back dad picks up and i tell him i am back in C-Town so he then says mom wants to talk to you. CRAP! She picks up whimpering and sobbing..."Where have you been are you ok i was so worried I thought you were dead!"...had to calm her down then i got pissed off cause she was like if you were gonna be late you should have called...i call every time i leave to head home people...and she hates when i talk on my cell phone when i drive...never thought she would have a panic attack for me being thirty minutes late from rehearsal when I was trying to be a safe and responsible driver.

GO FIGURE!

Well now that i have bored you with my ordeals of last night I am gonna sign of until later!

Bye everyone!

Andrew

Back To School

2009-05-18T11:52:00.002-04:00

So today was the first day back to classes for Maymester at CSU. I was up at 8 had class from 9 to what was supposed to be 12:20.....AHHHHHHHH!!!! But luckily we got done with today's work in like an hour so i got out at about 10:15....Woot! I think i am going to enjoy Computer tech for the theatre....i mean i already love our professor but the class seems really fun too!

Right now i am in between Comp Tech and Bibb City theatre history.....and if mom is reading two of my books have arrived....

I am however really nervous about my first rehearsal for Snoopy! tonight. Mostly about all the late night driving i have to do....i have really bad night vision...hope i don't hit anything...lol....*whimper* I am also however really and uberly excited about having my first rehearsal tonight I can finally see how GREAT everyone sounds singing....hopefully GREAT...jk we all are fantastic...i know it!

Well hopefully I am getting back into the swing of blogging more regularly so as not to make people think i have fallen off the face of the earth....if anyone besides my close friends follow my blog....i doubt there is anyone else, but if there is...I APOLOGIZE!

Well bye for now

Andrew

The World According To Snoopy!

2009-05-16T11:07:00.002-04:00

So hey guys it has been a while since i posted last, almost five months i think....gah! Welll life this past semester at college has both been joyous and uber stressfull at the same time. I had the honor of getting cast in two productions: one, my friends freestage Breakfast for Three, and two, the one act Oh Dad, Poor Dad, Momma's Hung You in the Closet and I'm Feelin' so Sad. They were both two of the greatest experiences i have had this year at CSU. Now i am working on my freestage for next year and if you read this and are at CSU pleasee come audition!

This has also been a rough semester for those of us at CSU. Between having your dorms pelted with tornadoes for numerous weekends too losing a person really dear to you it was a long final two months.

But every dark cloud has a silver lineing because durning the last week of classes i auditioned for a show back home and got cast in a leading role....my first leading role. I auditioned for a small community theatre production of Snoopy! the Musical and i got cast as Charlie Brown. While Snoopy is the star i am right behind him. I even have my own solo where i am alone on stage....nervous...yes i am...but excited too. I am also excited about this cast. While i have worked with most of them before, we have many new comers to this community theatre. In fact other than three of us in the main cast the others are all new to Southside. And they are uber awesome and nice people. Our ensemble though i haven't heard them sing or seen them dance yet i know are gonna be great and might possibly steal the show at times. So once again if you know me and are reading this come see it cause it is going to be a fantastic show......and if you get in good with me there might be a comp ticket in it for you....lol!

I am also uber excited about SUMMER! I get to go to Miami in three weeks! I haven't been to the beach in what feels like two years. It will be nice just to chill with my family for a week without having to worry about school or work.....yes i will be working this summer....grrrrr....but money is a great plus side to it! But i am really excited cause my parents are goin to drive us down to the Keys for a day...maybe two....one can beg and plead!

Well there is alot more i could say but i am pressed for time so i love you guys and hope...if you are out already.....you are having a great summer thus far.....or if you are like me have three more weeks......when summer comes you have a great one!

Bye for now

Andrew

Happy New Year

2009-01-16T19:34:00.003-05:00

Well folks it is a new year and a new semester. I am excited because this semester is going to be full of new experiences starting with classes...Stage Make-Up, Class Voice, World History, English, Natural Disaters, Intro to Cultural Diversity, and then I am also working in the Box Office for theatre Practice hours!
back home!

Christmas break was way too long for my taste i missed my friends from college but enjoyed the time i had with my friends back home.Luckily i got to go and visit somew of m y college buds i n Augusta. A Crazy Night of Apples to Apples and good food and Spud Guns! I wouldn't trade my friends for anything!

I got back to school about three days early because i had a required meeting in my department the Friday before classes started. So now i am back at school and having a ball! Our first show of the season opens tomorrow and it is going to be fantastic!

Well that is all for now people! TTYL!

Can't Be Bothered Now

2008-12-04T19:08:00.003-05:00

Well as of last night my stress levels reached a new high because i had two major paper to type. I even had to skip a class to get one of them done. Next week is is the week before finals. And then Finals. Stressed much? Definitely!
On the bright side though I got in a directing scene and my best friend in the whole word is coming for a weekend visit next weekend! I also have a bunch of event to attend this weekend! Another plus was the fact i got to spend alot of the earlier part of the week with my Robin and Jamie and Megan [Houskat!] Baking a shmolrgasboazrd of cookies! Fun times in 3B!!!!!!!!! Who knows what the weekend will bring? We`shall see! Bye for now!

The Transylvania Mania (not really just Washington State really)

2008-11-21T12:58:00.002-05:00

Ok so i went with a butt load of people last night to see TWILIGHT! It was awesome and a great ending to a pretty great day and the start of a great weekend.

I know i haven't posted in quite a while. Life is really great. Been spending alot of time with my friends and busy doing tech work on shows here at college, yahoo!

I was very privileged to get to see my friends in their production of Mulan Jr. a few weeks ago. It was a great show and i had a great time with them at Season Tickets after the show. Sometimes i go home and feel like i never really left. But at the same time i am having a great time with my friends, i am missing my friends back at school. Sorry guys if you are my hometown friends who are reading this but it happens when you make new friends that are far away when you go home.

Robin and i have been haveing a lot of fun nights together from watching Desperate Housewives to eating 2 boxes of Mac and chesse out of a pot while watching her high school production of Grease...lol. Good Times. Then there is my dear Ma'ayan, who watches a movie with me almost everyday (not lately though she is too busy for me anymore...tear tear)

College is one of the best experiences of my life and CSU is now my home away from home and I love Columbus. I love it here.

This semester is almost over and it has just flown by. It has been a semester i will never forget.

What I've Been Looking For

2008-09-11T12:08:00.002-04:00

I sit at the window,
Watching the passers-by
In a subconscious fashion,
Expecting someone to stop and say Hello.

Just a nod of notice
Or a glance
From someone, anyone.
It's just a hit or miss.

Tons walk by
One after another
Minute by minute,
A girl, then guy.

Someone takes my gaze away
From in front of me
Past the people there to
Across the street and there they stay.

Eyes meet and time slows
A hand raisesand moves to and fro
I smile, they smile, we smile.
A relationship grows.

I return the favor,
I raise my hand.
It sways back and forth.
A friendship I will savor.

Our hands stop,
Simles still intact.
Our eyes locked,
But hands drop.

They start to move,
Eyes still joined,
And soon the throng
Begins to move.

Time starts again,
Our chance meeting ceased,
But friendships last.
A moment for gain.

Now, a time to save,
A day fulfilled
Sitting at the window
Waiting for the Wave.

A Lot of livin' to Do

2008-09-09T21:46:00.002-04:00

Well people i know it has been a while. I am now a busy college student who had honestly forgotten about his blog until earlier today.

Well my life is now pretty much going, going, gone 24/7. Every day brings on a new and exciting adventure. Whether i am in class, chilling in Jamie's room, going to RA events, or just doing random stuff with Robin, Janine, Cory, Megan, Doug, and Laura. (speaking of which i am doing the latter currently, in fact i am typing this on Janine's computer.)

Well for those who are worried if i am enjoying myself....I am lovin life, and having a blast. There is so much to do you just have to find it!

Life is good, my friends are the bomb, and i couldn't be happier!

So that is a quick update of the life of me!

Everything Old Is New Again

2008-08-22T11:56:00.002-04:00

I started classes yesterday and i had script analysis and US Hist. I loved both of the teachers (I think for once in four years i am going to enjoy History and Amrican for that matter). BEcky BEcker my Script analysis Professor is so sweet and nice, loved her!. Mr. Cope my History teacher is hilarious....such a change from my monotoned history teacher from high school.....

Then today I had Pre-Calc. I think i will do very well in the class since everything on the professors sylabus I covered last year in high school. The only thing tat worries me is that the teacher sounds Romanian and has a strong accent, luckily i understood everything he said today....but who knows what is to come.

Monday is my crazy day I have like four classes. all over the place. mostly Theatre classes but I have Pre calc as well....and a dreaded night course.

But i think this semester is gonna run smoothly!

La Vie Boheme

2008-08-17T13:28:00.003-04:00

Ok so yesterday I move in to my dorm at CSU....what an ordeal that was. I was already nervous once I got there, but then I developed a stress headache from my parents but once they left for the hotel I came to life again.

OMG I have met the craziest coolest people this weekend. Cory, my CSU big Brother, is so hilarious and awesoem that I just can't handle it (i can tell he and I are going to get along just fine). Megan is so much fun and last night she said she was keyed down so I can't wait for her to break loose! :) Then I met Robin who is so whacky and cool and fun. Then Kayla is awesome.....the list just goes on Dureyea, Michael, Jordan, Janine, India, Carolyn, Jamie, Lindsay, Emma, cassie, molly..........oh I could go on forever! Oh and of course there is Barrett even more amazing in person.

So yeah like a bunch of theatre and music kids went to IHOP last night. 18 of us to be exact. And we just had a jolly old time there. so yeah I think i AM GOING TO SURVIVE THIS YEAR!!!!!

Ok my roomies (as of now) are the bomb. We are all very different but yet we are all alike sorta. Michael is a clarinet major, Jordan is oboe, and Brad is Criminal Justice. It is going to be a fun year already i can tell.......so yeah I am so ready for my new life to begin. It is going to be awesome!!!!!!!

Go Cougars!

So Long Farewell

2008-08-13T15:52:00.001-04:00

Summer has quickly faded in to the past, and now I look ahead to the future. New School, new friends, newlife experiences.....But i will miss all of the good times I have had with the people I have known all these years. I have so many inside jokes that I don't know what i am going to do without them.....probably make new ones with my new comrades....The memories i have with these people are never going to fade. I shall think of my firends all the time and remember the fun things we did, the trouble we got into, the randomness we always were a part of..... And that is just my high school friends. Class of '08 at ACS i am going to miss seeing each of you everyday, ya'll made life fun and exciting, i hope that everyone excelles at whatever they plan on doing in their futures

The next group is very dear to my heart, though many years younger than me, we have grown up together. and they are my beloved youth group groupies. LAyna, Hannah and Danielle, my three stoogettes, I am going to miss your craziness every sunday and Wednesday. You always found a way to brighten my day. I am so going to miss you all. I love ya'll so much. Then there is Sam and Mitch. Mitch you are great fun to be around. Your goofyness is catching. When you are crazy we all are crazy. Sam I have only really gotten to know you this summer but you are a great kid. I am going to really miss those Wednesday nights on the bleachers or the swings, and especially our table in the fellowship hall. Layna feeding me, hannah being sarcastic, Danielle being hyper, mitch being mitch, and sam........ahhh goodtimes. If any of you ever read this....psst! Tag Your IT!!!!!!!! Bahahahahaha!

And my final group of friends that have actually turned into my extended family. My theatre buds. From FCFT, to STG, To ACS. I am going to miss so many people that i have worked with over this past year and a half. But many more who i have know for what seems like forever My beloved Emily.....You and I will always have one thing in common and to think it is what actually brought our friendship together(WICKED.) I have to do this now....or i will never get it done..... but it is for all of my theatre friends and not just Em.

I've heard it said

That people come into our lives

For A Reason

Bringing something we must learn

And we are lead to those

who help us most to grow

If we let them
And help them in Return

Well I don't know If I believe that's true

But I know I'm who I am today

because I knew you

Like a Comet pulled from orbit

as it passes a sun

Like a stream that meets a boulder

halfway through the wood

Who Can say

if i've been changed for the better

but Because I knew you

I have been changed for good

It well may be
That We may never meet again

In this lifetime

So let me say before we part

So much of me

Is made of what I learned form you

You'll be with me

like a handprint on my heart

And now whatever way our stories end

I know you have rewritten mine

by being my friend

Like a ship blown from it's mooring

By a wind off the sea

Like a seed dropped by a sky bird

in a distant wood

Who can say

if I've been changed for the better

But because I knew you

Because I knew you

I have been Changed for good

And just to clear the air

I ask forgiveness

for the things I've done

you blame me for

but then I guess

we know there's blame to share

and none of it seems

to matter any more

Like a comet puled from orbit

Like a ship blown from it's morring

As it passes a sun

by a wind off the sea

Like a stream that meets a boulder

Like a seed dropped by a bird

Halfway through the wood

in the wood

Who can say if i've been changed for the better

I do believe i have been changed for the better

And Because I knew you

Because I knew you

because I knew you

I have been Changed

For Good

Movin' Out

2008-08-13T12:49:00.002-04:00

Ok so I am pretty much packed for CSU, and am so ready to go. I am so pumped to meet all the people I have met on FB. They are awesome! I can already tell that this year is going to be fun, crazy, interesting, and amazing, just from the people i have met!

I have now officailly been introduced to all my roomies, only one i haven't met face to face. I think they are going to be great! I can't wait!

My life is about to change so much but I think i am completely ready for the change to life on my own. Mom and Dad are skeptical about it but I am not I think a change is exactly what I need to get out of my life of disaster right now.

I am so excited and just wanna say that CSU is about to be windswept by a force known as Andrew Miller he is going to take the campus by storm......but in a good way! I am so ready! CSU here I come!

Fun, Fun, Fun!

2008-08-12T17:06:00.002-04:00

Today was a blast i got to hang out with one of my besties, Danielle. We went down to West GA to get her books and parking pass. and goofed off pretty much all day. She, me and her Boyfriend, Kevin, all wnet.

First she picked me up and we went to get gas at Flash Foods in Palmetto then we got there and she realized she had left her purse at Kevin's house so we had to go and pick it up then we went back to get gas and head to Carrollton.

After we went to Carrollton we headed back to Newnan and had lunch at Taco Bell, yum! Then since her boyfriend was driving her crazy I moved from the backseat to the front, and Danielle and i had a jolly good time with our little inside jokes that Kevin was cluless about.

After Taco Bell we went to Pet Smart to look at the animals. We actually did it just to waste time. But It was fun.

And tomorrow will be fun too. Danielle is coming over for a Rocky Horror Picture Show movie day! Yay! Let's do The Time Warp again!!!!!!!

Under Pressure/I Want To Break Free

2008-08-11T15:06:00.003-04:00

I hate automobiles. My '96 Neon is out to make my life a misery. All summer it has been in and out of the shop for this and that. Today was just the tip of the iceberg. I had a blow out on the way home from running errands.

In the process of trying to get to the spare I managed to drop a barbell on my foot. Now there is a lovely black and blue knot on my right index toe. it doesn't hurt except when you put any kind of direct pressure to it. So it is definitely not broken just bruised.

My life has come to a grinding halt this week but I know it shall take speed again after Thursday. I am ready to get out of the house, make my own choices, and hang out with friends when ever I want to.

I am ready to break free of the shell that I have lived in for so many years. I love my family but i am ready to leave the nest. My parents have, i think, finally realized that I have grown up and they are finally ready for me to be on my own.

I am ready for college. I have friends already, even some of which I haven't met yet =]! they know who they are and I am so excited to finally meet them in person. I know it is going to be a change but i like change, especially when it is a good change.

Positive

2008-08-11T00:34:00.002-04:00

So doing Little Women would not be possible without our fans, but of all our fans one sticks out the most. The love able, hilarious, and just phenomenal, Sara Turner.

She has rightfully earned the role of our number one fan. she has been to more of our rehearsals than anyone, and she is at every performance to help backstage and to cheer us on. She is always there to cheer you up when you feel like crap.

Sara We LOVE You! I am gonna miss you this next year.....alot! So make sure you always keep it positive as usual!

It Sucks to Be Me

2008-08-11T00:27:00.002-04:00

Ok this is in honor of my favorite character in Little Women whose cast member I forgot to mention in last night's post. My Beloved Hannah Herndon.

Ok so I first met the amazing Hannah in the fall of 2008. We were both in FCFt's cast of Beauty and the Beast, she was a lonely egg seller and I LeFou. Then she took a break from FCFT shows for a while and branched out and played one of Cinderella's Step Sisters in Twilight's Into The Woods.

When I first got cast in Little Women I was like Hannah has to be Beth. And I was so thrilled when I was right! I have loved working with you again, Hannah. You are so much fun to be around. You are always cheerful and smiling. you Brighten my day!

Well now that I have said that I must now post about one other vital member of the Little Women family.........

Beyond My Wildest Dreams

2008-08-09T23:09:00.003-04:00

OMG! So superstitions in theatre are true I swear because today's shows were awesome. This afternoon's dragged a little because the audience was dead, but tonight.....oh Tonight I am gonna have myself a real good time I feel a li-i-i-iiive ( Queen reference) Tonight was awesome, we came, we did, and ASTONISHED!

They audience was so captivated and intrigued by the whole thing. Hoots and hollers resounded through the theatre at curtain call. It was what I would count as our opening show! I mean the audience cried with us, cheered with us, etc. It was an experience I will never forget.

I don't think i have ever felt so proud of a show in my life cause all this week I had been saying to myself "are we really gonna pull this off?" Tonight all my doubts were dissolved and my nerves were jostled back into place!

To those who look at my blog regularly, Amy Hebel you are an amazing director and I am so glad, as I have said before, so glad that I got to be a part of this show. As I say to you after every show "We Did It!" I can't wait for the final performance when those words will take on a whole 'nother meaning: we successfully put on FCFT's first student directed play and it was a hit!!!!!!

To my two wives: Emily and Grace, I am the luckiest guy ever to get to get "married" to two of his best friends ever. Emily we have shared some bumps during this show, but we both know that we have each other's back when the going gets rough, and our spats usually only last the night. Grace I am so glad to have gotten the chance to do a show with you again, you are so fun and energetic for such a quiet person. I am glad I got to know you better.

Josh you are always a blast to work with I am so glad to be working with you on yet another show this summer. I had a blast in HSM and now I am having a blast in Little Women. Go Wildcats!

Mrs. Meloni and Laney, you are new to FCFT but you have quickly become family. I love you both to death. Laney you always have a way of putting smiles on our faces and that is what I will remember you most for. Mrs. Meloni you have been a joy to work with, I can now see where Laney gets her great sense of humor from. You are always keeping me laughing backstage even though we both could get chewed out. Thank you both for all the great moments of the show.

Trevor, I have seen you only once before this show, another phenomenal performance mind you ( I love Godspell now,) and yet you still do not cease to amaze me. Your voice is great and you have given me great advice during this show. You are a fun person to be around. Thanks for all the good times!

Brent well you and I have done (sorta) three shows together now and your gifts and talents still amaze me. You are so gifted and talented that you will go far. I am so glad to call you a friend. You are fun to be around (though sometimes less talking is wiser) JK! I really have enjoyed working with you again, and hope I will have the chance again real soon.

And finally Mrs. Tammy, you have been my director for three shows now and I wasn't sure what to expect when I found out that you were playing aunt March.....I was like "Is she good? I have never seen her act before." But you have surprised me in all of your diversity and creativity. You had a challenge that none of the rest of us honestly had. You had to play to completely contrasting characters which you did to a tee. You made us want to be annoyed with Aunt March, and you made us a giggle as Mrs. Kirk. You truly are an amazing person filled with more than one talent ( so I found out. ) Though I am leaving next week for college I hope that this will no be the last time my path crosses with FCFT. It has now become part of who I am.

I love this cast to death and am so proud of each and everyone of you. I just wanted to show my appreciation for each of you. Now lets do this up right tomorrow! Break a Leg and lets Astonish the world!

Another Openin' Another Show

2008-08-09T10:32:00.003-04:00

So this weekend I have four performances of Little Women. And after last night i am hoping the shows go smoothly and that the audience will love this show.

I have had a blast this summer first High School Musical, and now Little Women. It has been a year of back to back shows starting last June with Crazy For You and going off to college next Saturday, who knows if it will stop since I am going for theatre.

But I digress, I have had a great summer doing shows. But Little Women holds a special place in my heart because it will first and foremost be my last show with FCFT for a while, and secondly I have enjoyed working with this great cast (most of which I have worked with before.) Our director, Amy Hebel, is one of my best friends and I am so glad to be involved with this show and to work with her again. Amy, if you ever see this, you will always be my "twin"

Today we open. So I just wanna wish every one a broken leg. And we shall Astonish the world.

The Show Must Go On

2008-08-09T00:38:00.003-04:00

OK so this was final dress Parent preview night for Little Women............It is a good thing that bad dress rehearsals equal good performance......People! Tonight SUCKED!!!!!!! It SUCKED big purple hairy toes

The dropping of lines was the biggest flub made, and actually the songs sounded really good for the most part. Our audience of six people was kinda lifeless but we acted as if there was no audience so it would be a final dress.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a great success and we shall "Astonish the world"

At the End of the Day

2008-08-08T16:23:00.003-04:00

Ugh today was a drag to say the least. I did nothing but chores all day, and what do i get as a reward? A night of dress rehearsal for Little Women.....oh but it isn't just final dress...oh no! of course not we have to have an audience. It is also Parent preview night. Hopefully i shan't take another attempt at taking my life tonight........

For those who have no earthly idea what I am referring to....last night (my first entrance mind you) I slipped and slid in to the flats which then decided that it was time for my life to end and they were going to help me along by crushing me. But I prevailed and lived to tell the tale. Because of some extremely quick thinking I managed to break my fall and then in one fluid motion stop the flats from bringing me to my demise.

Sadly though, my shoulder is killing me today, but the show must go on so I will get over my aches.

Ok back to the reason my day was a drag i got up at 10 I know not so bad but straight away I had to bake cookies for concessions for the show this weekend, and i ended up over baking some because in addition to the baking I also had my weekly housecleaning chores to do: the bathroom, the vaccuuuming, and mowing the yard.

On top of all that, this week i have been taking care of my Grandmother who has alzheimers and that is a pain in itself because she is not the goofy kind of alzheimers, she is a cantankerous old biddy who doesn't care what she says or who she says it too. But I love her despite her illness, but i will be honest it isn't the same love I used to have for her. She used to be my favorite grandma but now she is a pain in the neck.

So that is why today was a drag. I am ready for college to start so I can get out of the prison I call Home. I need to get some life back into my life!

Good Evening Ladies and Gentlemen

2008-08-08T01:43:00.000-04:00

Ok so i got the wild idea to start up a new blog because my old one has been long forgoten about and I don't even remeber my pasword. through this blog I hope to journal my life from here on out so if you plan to keep up with the story you better be a faithful reader.........